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For Sister Ignatia: our everlasting gratitude |
SISTER MARY IGNATIA, one of the finest
friends that we of AA shall ever know, went to her reward Friday morning, April
first, nineteen hundred sixty-six. Next day, the Sisters of Charity of St.
Augustine opened their Mother House to visitors. More than one thousand of them
signed the guest book in the first two hours. These were the first of many who
during the two days following came to pay their respects to Sister.
On Monday at high noon the Cathedral at Cleveland could barely seat its
congregation. Friends in the city and from afar attended the service. The
Sisters of Charity themselves were seen to be seated in a body, radiant in their
faith. Together with families and friends, we of AA had come there in expression
of our gratitude for the life and works of our well-loved Sister. It was not
really a time for mourning, it was instead a time to thank God for His great
goodness to us all.
In its affirmation of the faith, the Mass was of singular beauty; the more so to
many, since it was spoken in English. The eulogy, written and read by a close
friend of Sister's, was a graphic and stirring portrayal of her character, and
of her deeds. There was a most special emphasis upon the merits of AA, and upon
the part co-founder Dr. Bob had played in Sister's great adventure among us. We
were assured as seldom before that those who dwell in the fellowship of the
Spirit need never be concerned with barriers, or with boundaries.
For those thousands of men, women and children whose lives had been directly
touched and illumined by Sister, it would perhaps not be needful to write this
account of her. Of Sister, and of the Grace she brought to all these, they
already know better than anyone else. But to the many others who have never felt
her presence and her love, it is hoped this narrative may be something for their
special inspiration.
Born in 1889 of devout and liberty-loving parents, Sister entered into this
world at Shanvilly, County Mayo, of the Emerald Isle. The famed poet Yeats, born
nearby, once remarked that the strange beauty of County Mayo had been specially
designed to raise up poets, artists, heroes and saints. We can little doubt that
even when Ignatia was aged six, and her parents had emigrated from Ireland to
Cleveland, she was already beginning to manifest many a sterling virtue.
Soon the child began to reveal unusual musical talents, both of piano and voice.
A few years later she was seen giving lessons at the home of her parents. During
1914, she became possessed of a great desire to become a religious. In this year
she joined the Community that many of us AAs know so well - the Sisters of
Charity of St. Augustine. There she continued her musical education and her
teaching.
But even then, as ever since, Sister was frail, exceeding frail. By 1933 the
rigors of her music teaching had become too great. She had a really serious
physical breakdown. Her doctor put to her this choice: "You will have to take it
easy. You can either be a dead music teacher or a live Sister. Which is it going
to be?"
With great good cheer, so her Community says, Mary Ignatia accepted a much
quieter and less distinguished assignment. She became the registrar at St.
Thomas Hospital in Akron, Ohio - an institution administered by her Order. At
the time it was wondered if she could manage even this much. That she would live
to the age of seventy-seven was not believable; that she was destined to
minister to 15,000 alcoholics and their families in the years to come was known
only to God.
For a considerable time Sister serenely carried on at the admissions desk in St.
Thomas. It was not then certain she had ever heard of AA. Though Group One at
Akron, and Group Two in New York had been in slow and fitful growth since 1935,
neither had come to public notice.
AA's sudden growth
However in 1939 the scene changed abruptly. In the spring of that year the AA
book was first printed, and Liberty magazine came up with an article about our
society in the early fall. This was quickly followed by a whole series of
remarkable pieces which were carried by The Cleveland Plain Dealer on its
editorial page. The newspaper and the mere two dozen AAs then in town were
swamped by frantic pleas for help. Despite this rather chaotic situation, the
Cleveland membership burgeoned into several hundreds in a few months.
Nevertheless the implications of this AA population explosion were in some ways
disturbing, especially the lack of proper hospital facilities. Though the
Cleveland hospitals had rallied gallantly to this one emergency, their interest
naturally waned when bills often went unpaid, and when ex-drunks trooped through
the corridors to do what they called "Twelfth Step" work on sometimes noisy
victims just arrived. Even the City Hospital at Akron, where Dr. Bob had
attended numerous cases, was showing signs of weariness.
In New York we had temporarily got off to a better start. There we had dear old
Dr. Silkworth and, after awhile, his wonderful AA nurse "Teddy." This pair were
to "process" some 12,000 New York area drunks in the years ahead, and so they
became, as it were, the "opposite numbers" to the partnership of co-founder Dr.
Bob and Sister Ignatia at Akron.
Much concerned that, hospital-wise, his area might be caught quite unprepared to
cope with a great new flood of publicity about AA, Dr. Bob in 1940 decided to
visit St. Thomas and explain the great need for a hospital connection that could
prove permanently effective. Since St. Thomas was a church institution, he
thought the people there might vision a fine opportunity for service where the
others had not. And how right he was!
Sister Ignatia learns of AA
But Bob knew no one in authority at the hospital. So he simply betook himself to
"Admissions" and told the diminutive nun in charge the story of AA, including
that of his own recovery. As this tale unfolded, the little sister glowed. Her
compassion was deeply touched and perhaps her amazing intuition had already
begun to say, "This is it." Of course Sister would try to help, but what could
one small nun do? After all, there were certain attitudes and regulations.
Alcoholism had not been reckoned as an illness; it was just a dire form of
gluttony!
Dr. Bob then told Sister about an alcoholic who then was in a most serious
condition. A bed would simply have to be found for him. Said Mary Ignatia, "I'm
sure your friend must be very sick. You know, Doctor, this sounds to me like a
terrible case of indigestion." Trying to keep a straight face, Dr. Bob replied,
"How right you are - his indigestion is most terrible." Twinkling, Sister
immediately said, "Why don't you bring him in right away?"
The two benign conspirators were soon faced with yet another dilemma. The victim
proved to be distressingly intoxicated. It would soon be clear to all and sundry
that his "indigestion" was quite incidental. Obviously a ward wouldn't do. There
would have to be a private room. But all the single ones were filled. What on
earth could they do? Sister pursed her lips, and then broke into a broad smile.
Forthwith he declared, "I'11 have a bed moved into our flower room. In there he
can't disturb anyone." This was hurriedly done, and the "indigestion" sufferer
was already on his way to sobriety and health.
Of course the conspirators were conscience-stricken by their subterfuge of the
flower room. And anyhow, the "indigestion" pretense simply couldn't last.
Somebody in authority would have to be told, and that somebody was the
hospital's Superior. With great trepidation Sister and Dr. Bob waited upon this
good lady, and explained themselves. To their immense delight she went along,
and a little later, she boldly unfolded the new project before the St. Thomas
trustees. To their everlasting credit they went along too - so much so that it
was not a great while before Dr. Bob himself was invited to become a staff
physician at St. Thomas, a bright example indeed of the ecumenical spirit.
Presently a whole ward was devoted to the rehabilitation of alcoholics, and
Sister Ignatia was of course placed in immediate charge. Dr. Bob sponsored the
new cases into the hospital and medically treated each, never sending a bill to
any. The hospital fees were very moderate and Sister often insisted on taking in
patients on a "pay later" basis, sometimes to the mild consternation of the
trustees.
Together Ignatia and Dr. Bob indoctrinated all who cared to listen to the AA
approach as portrayed by the book Alcoholics Anonymous, lately come off the
press. The ward was open to visiting AAs from surrounding groups who, morning to
night, told their stories of drinking and of recovery. There were never any
barriers of race or creed; neither was AA nor Church teaching pressed upon any.
With infinite tenderness
Since nearly all her strenuous hours were spent there, Sister became a central
figure on the ward. She would alternately listen and talk, with infinite
tenderness and understanding. The alcoholic's family and friends received the
very same treatment. It was this most compassionate caring that was a chief
ingredient of her unique Grace; it magnetically drew everyone to her, even the
most rough and obstinate. Yet she would not always stand still for arrant
nonsense. When the occasion required, she could really put her foot down. Then
to ease the hurt, she would turn on her delightful humor. Once, when a
recalcitrant drunk boasted he'd never again be seen at the hospital, Sister shot
back, "Well, let's hope not. But just in case you do show up, please remember
that we already have your size of pajamas. They will be ready and waiting for
you!"
As the fame of St. Thomas grew, alcoholics flocked in from distant places. After
their hospitalization they often remained for a time in Akron to get more
first-hand AA from Dr. Bob, and from Akron's Group Number One. On their return
home, Sister would carry on an ever mounting correspondence with them.
We AAs are often heard to say that our Fellowship is founded upon resources that
we have drawn from medicine, from religion and from our own experience of
drinking and of recovery. Never before nor since those Akron early days have we
witnessed a more perfect synthesis of all these healing forces. Dr. Bob
exemplified both medicine and AA; Ignatia and the Sisters of St. Augustine also
practiced applied medicine, and their practice was supremely well animated by
the wonderful spirit of their Community. A more perfect blending of Grace and
talent cannot be imagined.
It should never be necessary to dwell, one by one, upon the virtues of these
magnificent friends of AA's early time - Sister Ignatia and co-founder Dr. Bob.
We need only recollect that "by their fruits we shall always know them."
Passing of Dr. Bob
Standing before the Cleveland International Convention of 1950, Dr. Bob looked
upon us of AA for the last time. His good wife Anne had passed on before, and
his own rendezvous with the new life to come was not many months away.
Ten years had slipped by since the day when he and Sister had bedded down that
first sufferer in the St. Thomas flower room. In this marvelous decade Sister
and Dr. Bob had medically treated, and had spiritually infused, five thousand
alcoholics. The greater part of these had found their freedom under God.
In thankful recollection of this great work, we of AA presented to the Sisters
of Charity -of St. Augustine and to the Staff of the St. Thomas Hospital a
bronze plaque, ever since to be seen in the ward where Sister and Dr. Bob had
wrought their wonders. The plaque reads as follows:
IN GRATITUDE
THE FRIENDS OF DR. BOB AND ANNE S.
AFFECTIONATELY DEDICATE THIS MEMORIAL
TO THE SISTERS AND STAFF OF
ST. THOMAS HOSPITAL
AT AKRON. BIRTHPLACE OF ALCOHOLICS
ANONYMOUS. ST. THOMAS HOSPITAL BECAME
THE FIRST RELIGIOUS INSTITUTION EVER
TO OPEN ITS DOORS TO OUR SOCIETY.
MAY THE LOVING DEVOTION OF THOSE WHO
LABORED HERE IN OUR PIONEERING TIME
BE A BRIGHT AND WONDROUS EXAMPLE
OF GOD'S GRACE EVERLASTINGLY SET
BEFORE US ALL.
Visitors at St. Thomas today often wonder why this inscription says not a word
about Sister Ignatia. Well, the fact was, she wouldn't allow her name to be
used. She had flatly refused; it was one of those times when she had put her
foot down! This was of course a glowing example of her innate and absolutely
genuine humility. Sister truly believed that she deserved no particular notice;
that such Grace as she might have could only be credited to God and to the
community of her sisters.
This was indeed the ultimate spirit of anonymity. We who had then seen this
quality in her were deeply affected, especially Dr. Bob and myself. Hers came to
be the influence that persuaded us both never to accept public honors of any
sort. Sister's example taught that a mere observance of the form of AA anonymity
should never become the slightest excuse for ignoring its spiritual substance.
Following Dr. Bob's death, there was great concern lest Sister might not be
allowed to continue her work. As in other orders of the church, service
assignments among the Sisters of Charity were rather frequently rotated. This
was the ancient custom. However, nothing happened for a time. Assisted by
surrounding AA groups, Sister continued to carry on at St. Thomas. Then suddenly
in 1952, she was transferred to St. Vincent Charity Hospital at Cleveland,
where, to the delight of us all, she was placed in charge of its alcoholic ward.
At Akron a fine successor was named to succeed her; the work there would
continue.
The ward at "Charity" occupied part of a dilapidated wing, and it was in great
need of repair and rejuvenation. To those who knew and loved Sister, this
opportunity proved a most stimulating challenge. The Charity trustees also
agreed that something should be done. Substantial contributions flowed in. In
their spare hours, AA carpenters, plumbers and electricians set about redoing
the old wing - no charge for their services. The beautiful result of these
labors of love is now known as Rosary Hall.
Again the miracles of recovery from alcoholism commenced to multiply. During the
following fourteen years, an astonishing 10,000 alcoholics passed through the
portals of "Rosary Hall" there to fall under the spell of Mary Ignatia, and of
AA. More than two-thirds of all these recovered from their dire malady, and
again became citizens of the world. From dawn to dark Sister offered her unique
Grace to that endless procession of stricken sufferers. Moreover, she still
found time to minister widely to their families and this very fruitful part of
her work became a prime inspiration to the Al-Anon Family Groups of the whole
region.
Notwithstanding her wonderful workers within the hospital, and help from AAs
without, this must have been a most exacting and exhausting vocation for the
increasingly frail Sister. That she was providentially enabled to be with us for
so many years is something for our great wonder. To hundreds of friends it
became worth a day's journey to witness her supreme and constant demonstration.
Toward the close of her long stewardship there were brushes with death.
Sometimes I came to Cleveland and was allowed to sit by her bedside. Then I saw
her at her best. Her perfect faith, and her complete acceptance of whatever God
might will was somehow implicit in all she said, be our conversation gay, or
serious. Fear and uncertainty seemed entire strangers to her. On my
leave-taking, there was always that smiling radiance; always her prayerful hope
that God might still allow her a bit more time at Rosary Hall. Then a few days
later I would learn that she was back at her desk. This superb drama would be
re-enacted time after time. She was quite unconscious that there was anything at
all unusual about it.
Realizing there would come the day which would be her last, it seemed right that
we of AA should privately present Sister with some tangible token that could,
even a little, communicate to her the depth of our love. Remembering her
insistence, in respect of the Akron plaque, that she would not really like any
public attention, I simply sent word that I'd like to come to Cleveland for a
visit, and casually added that should her health permit, we might take supper
together in the company of a few of her stalwart AA friends and co-workers.
Besides, it was her fiftieth year of service in her community.
On the appointed evening, we foregathered in one of the small dining rooms at
Charity Hospital. Plainly delighted, Sister arrived. She was barely able to
walk. Being old-timers all, the dinner hour was spent in telling tales of other
days. For, her part, Sister regaled us with stories of St. Thomas and with
cherished recollections of Anne and co-founder Dr. Bob. It was unforgettable.
Before Sister became too tired we addressed ourselves to our main project. >From
New York, I had brought an illuminated scroll. Its wording was in the form of a
letter addressed by me to Sister, and it was written on behalf of our AA
Fellowship worldwide. I stood up, read the scroll aloud, and then held the
parchment for her to see. She was taken by complete surprise and could scarcely
speak for a time. In a low voice she finally said, "Oh, but this is too much -
this is too good for me."
Our richest reward of the evening was of course Ignatia's delight; a joy
unbounded the moment we assured her that our gift need not be publicized; that
if she wished to stow it away in her trunk we would quite understand.
It then seemed that this most memorable and moving evening was over. But there
was to be another inspiring experience. Making light of her great fatigue,
Sister insisted that we all go up to Rosary Hall, there to make a late round of
the AA ward. This we did, wondering if any of us would ever again see her at
work in the divine vocation to which she had given her all. For each of us this
was the end of an epoch; I could think only of her poignant and oft-repeated
saying, "Eternity is now."
The scroll given to Sister may now be seen at Rosary
Hall. This is the inscription:
IN GRATITUDE
FOR SISTER MARY IGNATIA
ON THE OCCASION OF HER GOLDEN
JUBILEE
Dear Sister,
W e of Alcoholics Anonymous look upon you as the finest friend and the greatest
spirit we may ever know.
We remember your tender ministrations to us in the days when AA was very young.
Your partnership with Dr. Bob in that early time has created for us a spiritual
heritage of incomparable worth.
In all the years since, we have watched you at the bedside of thousands. So
watching, we have perceived ourselves to be the beneficiaries of that wondrous
light which God has always sent through you to illumine our darkness. You have
tirelessly tended our wounds; you have nourished us with your unique
understanding and your matchless love. No greater gifts of Grace than these
shall we ever have.
Speaking for AA members throughout the world, I say: "May God abundantly reward
you according to your blessed works - now and forever!'
In devotion,
March 25,1964, Bill W.
© August 1966 AA Grapevine
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