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Q - When you first sobered up how did you
approach alcoholics and did you change that approach?
A - I took off to cure alcoholics wholesale. It was twinjet propulsion;
difficulties meant nothing. The vast conceit of my project never occurred to me.
I pressed my assault for six months; my home was filled with alcoholics.
Harangues with scores produced not the slightest result. None of them got it.
Disappointingly, my friend of the kitchen table, who was sicker than I realized,
took little interest in other alcoholics. This fact may have caused his endless
backslides later on. For I had found that working with alcoholics had a huge
bearing on my own sobriety. But why wouldn't any of my new prospects sober up?
Slowly the bugs came to light. Like a religious crank, I was obsessed with the
idea that everybody must have a "spiritual experience" just like mine. I 'd
forgotten that there were many varieties. So my brother alcoholics just stared
incredulously or kidded me about my "hot flash." This had spoiled the potent
identification so easy to get with them. I had turned evangelist. Clearly the
deal had to be streamlined. What came to me in six minutes might require six
months in others. It was to be learned that words are things, that one must be
prudent. It was also certain that something ailed the deflationary technique. It
definitely lacked wallop. Reasoning that the alcoholic's "hex" or compulsion,
must issue from some deep level, it followed that ego deflation must also go
deep or else there couldn't be any fundamental release. Apparently religious
practice would not touch the alcoholic until his underlying situation was made
ready. Fortunately, all the tools were right at hand. You doctors supplied them.
The emphasis was shifted from "sin" to "sickness" - the "fatal malady,"
alcoholism. We quoted doctors that alcoholism was more lethal than cancer; that
it consisted of an obsession of the mind coupled to increasing body sensitivity.
These were our twin ogres of madness and death. We leaned heavily on Dr. Jung's
statement of how hopeless the condition could be and then poured that
devastating dose into every drunk within range. To modern man science is
omnipotent; it is a God. Hence if science could pass a death sentence on a
drunk, and we placed that verdict on our alcoholic transmission, it might
shatter him completely. Perhaps he would then turn to the God of the theologian,
there being no place else to go. Whatever the truth in this device, it certainly
had practical merit. Immediately our whole atmosphere changed. Things began to
look up. (Amer. J. PsychiatŠ., Vol.106, 1949)
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